April 10th, Bye for now

I'm taking a bus to Mexico City tonight. I don't know who I'll be staying with in the city, but I'm going, and getting a plane on Friday at some point. At least that is the plan right now.
I told Fernando and Irma about leaving this morning. I said in Spanish, "I needed to talk to both of you. I am going home tonight or tomorrow morning. I need my family right now. I'll return around the beginning of May."
Irma said that Felix had mentioned that last night to her but was waiting for me to bring it up. Fernando kind of shook his head. I couldn't tell if it was in disappointment or because he was sorry for the reason I would be going now. I felt like he was disappointed.
I kind of just sat at the table while the two of them got ready. Fernando came back out of his room and said I looked upset and wanted to know what else was going on. The truth was that I felt he was disappointed I was cutting out so early..like I was quitting. I told him I was sorry I was leaving, for both of us I was sorry. He gave me the pat on the knee like it would be ok and he wasn't mad. I sat some more cutting up and eating my pineapple. He came back over and without saying anything, gave me the most heartfelt hug. I hugged him back equally as strong, and just cried.
I have found something so unique here, I would be insane not to come back. This family has shown me a love unlike anything I've ever felt and exposed me to a world sans excessiveness. I feel like I've found another home in the world with people who will love me no matter what.
I'm sad to be going so soon after my arrival but know I'll return. I can't not return.
It isn't an option.